it feels so good knowing that you are loved, wanted & appreciated every day. it makes you think: how is it that you survived for so long without it? that special hug, that comforting kiss & those meaningful words that are spoken.

You are probably one of the strongest people I know. Lately the world seems to turn its back on you & there are evil pricks out there willing to make your life a living hell. But I know you’re stronger.

I know you may be scared of going out once again especially what happened previously at the club. I’m sorry I wasn’t there. But I am thankful that you ended up in the girls bathroom, unharmed. Shaken up, yet unharmed. It could have been a whole lot worse - You could have ended up on the evening news which freaks me out. People might be telling you to “just get over it.” You know what you should tell them? Tell them to fuck off. You can’t just get over it; it’s changed your life and your views about things: People would always think that these situations only happen to others but never to them. But now you know wiser and to be careful in the future right? This is why whenever I go out with you & the other girls I’m so damn anal about sticking together or in twos or threes. (…tram calls ME paranoid & Vanessa calls me ANAL GIRL).

But look, I know I haven’t been there lately and our plans seem to fall through (Six times is a bit much lol). You’ve been working full time and I am pretty much working full time (approx 28 hours a week now =_=) and studying on top. But you should know that if you ever need to talk to anyone, call me. Call me & I will always be there to listen to you & to talk to you through this. Because you know me - I’ve been through a lot of shit too. I’ve seen bad people do unfortunate things to good people (myself included). So call me. Call me when you are scared, because I will be there to comfort you. Always. Like you have always done for me through similar situations.I better end this here because I have to write up a slack 2000 worded essay that is two days late. sigh.

But remember:

I love you babe & you should always remember that x

:(

Another night spent with you. We had quality time together; we painted the factory white, had dinner & then went back to your place to chill out & watch Blue Mountain State. Time always flies by quickly when I’m with you and before you know it, it hit 2am & it was time to go home. I didn’t want to leave you alone in bed. I wanted to just lie there - kiss your lips, scratch your scalp, lick your face & cuddle. I wanted your hands in mine & your legs wrapped around me.

Whenever I kiss you good bye, I kiss you as though it might be the last time I am able to kiss your lips or to hold you; as though I will never see you again. But deep down, I know its because I am afraid that one day I will lose you. Even though one the chance of being separated from each others lives is plausible, I want to make the most of staying in yours. I am happy to lie there while you sleep and touch your face softly with my hands or be there for you when you want to rest your head on me; or tell you I love you at every opportunity that I get; or kiss you on the forehead whenever I please. I just know that every moment I am with you, I want to make the most of it & bask in your love - & I hope you feel the same x

I like how the only hardest decision of my day is whether to call you princess or beautiful. what makes it better is knowing that im telling you, my boyfriend, that you are :)